I’m Still Alive. I Promise. 

Hey Internet! As I’m sure you can tell from my lack of posting recently, life has been crizazy around these parts. On top of the things going on with Binx (who seems to be feeling a bit better (despite a continued lack of eating and huge weight loss) with the chemo pill we gave him) and the Whole 30 (which is going shockingly well. I am on day 21 and I have not slapped anyone from chocolate withdrawal) Adorabeezle and I are currently in the process of moving. We got the keys to our new apartment last Friday and don’t have to be out of the Titanic until the 31st, so we are moving gradually but I have gone on a packing rampage.  

Fun fact about me, Internet: I LOVE decorating and putting furniture together. Later today I am assembling a target bookshelf and I am PUMPED.  Yesterday after doing some unpacking I headed over to the nearest shopping center to the new place, which includes: Homegoods, World Market, Target, Ulta, AND Joann Fabrics. I am in trouble. And I love it. 

I think recently I have just been living out this mantra “life is hard.” It’s been on my mind for the last few months, because life has been hard. But I don’t want that to be my default. I want to be in a mind space that lets me overcome life being so hard instead of just accepting that fact and letting it drag me down. When that happens I tend to check out. I go on autopilot and just exist, and that’s not what I want to do. This is basically the main reason I have not blogged consistently in forever. It’s hard to blog about your life when you are only semi experiencing things. 

I don’t want to be checked out anymore. I want to be fully present both in my real life and on this little Internet space I have. That being said I’m not going to make any sweeping promises about all the blogging I will be doing – moving is very time consuming and I’m crocheting a blanket in my spare time because of course I am.  There is a lot on my plate (for instance, I am writing this post from the waiting area of a Discount Tire because when my mom visited she pointed out that I have gone WAY too lone without having my tires rotated and I really need this car to last), so I’m not sure how present I will be over the next few weeks, but I will try. 

What do you do when you are on autopilot Internet? Any suggestions?

4 Responses to I’m Still Alive. I Promise. 

  1. I love your heart and your strength!

  2. Alex says:

    Glad Binx is feeling a bit better, every little step helps, right? Definitely fun to channel your mood into moving and decorating, that is sure to lift your spirits! Plus, who couldn’t be happy while strolling through Homegoods!?

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